Anyways, Its been quite a while since I posted. So I am going to have to fill you guys in on quite a bit. But maybe a more shortened version?
Christmas: WOWEE! Christmas was a mix of emotions. It was so fun to have my family with me on Archers first Christmas. Olivia helped him unwrap all of his gifts. Haha She was more excited about them then he was, and I catch her playing with them quite a bit. Archer just loved the wrapping paper and bows, silly kid. We missed Callan an awful lot. Even though Christmas was a ton of fun, and I spent it with family, there was still that pit in my stomach. I missed Callan a ton! I will post pics soon!
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| New Jammies |
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| Time for Christmas Vacation! |
Callan graduates in 16 days! I can hardly wait. Its crazy how fast that time went. We are flying into San Antonio Wednesday night, for his graduation weekend starting Thursday morning! Yippee! Callan is doing SO good! This week (week 6) is BEAST week. Which is basically a simulated combat. They are in an
arena" basically for this week and they are in combat. CRAZY right? And you can "die" but only for 45 min. Callan was made the leader of his flight for this. That is how well he is doing. Isn't he amazing? I love him so much, and I am so very proud of him! GO CALLAN!
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| My bald Cally hubba hubba |
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My First Letter <3 |
Lets see...what else? We are kind of boring...well, I have been going to Occupational Therapy 3x a week, and I now have my own ESTEM unit, which is way cool. I have a really amazing therapist who is really optimistic about getting me better. It will take forever...nerves regrow about a millimeter every month, and that is only if there are no other issues. So that paints a picture for you right there how long its going to take.
I'm trying to stay optimistic. Its hard because in so many ways I feel like my life has been stolen from me. At OT I am the only one under 60 there. And all the other patients are always telling me how I am too young to be there. And I would have to agree. I am not usually the type to wallow in self pity. But sometimes its just too much to handle. I have a lot going on. Which brings me to my next topic...
Archer got his test results back and he IS positive for NF1. When my Dr. called with that news I didn't know what to do, what to say, how to act, how to feel...I am still in denial I think. Everyone always talks about "denial" and you know something? I used to think I knew what it felt like, but I was wrong. Denial is like a sinking feeling, like you are trying to get up but something keeps on pulling you down. But in the back of your head you think that someone will come pull you out of this hole when in reality no one will. Archer has no signs whatsoever of nf1, so our Drs didn'y think he had it, but we did the blood test anyway just for peace of mind. And whatdoyou know? He may be lucky and never have any symptoms, tumors, spots, anything. He may just carry the gene and nothing more. I pray to God that he doesn't have to endure the physical and mental pain this horrible disease brings. We will have to wait and see, but for now, no news is good news.
I don't want to end this post on a negative and sad note, so I will end by saying how excited I am for this new year. It is going to be full of changes and lots of them! I can't wait till we get our first duty station. Its going to be so exciting! And guess who will be 6 months old in just a few days?!
Until our next adventure.....
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| The Sqwishy and I |
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| Om Nom Nom |
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| Crack!!! |
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| New Years!!! |
